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Peace Be Upon You

Just so you know.I've been this way like 2 weeks.I can't sleep.No appetite.I don't socialize much cause I'm not in the mood.Beside,the eye bag are getting bigger.My skin are worse now cause it's not flawless like it used to be.I'm not pretty anymore :'(

Before you say anything,I wanted to be clear that,I'm not spreading the negative energy here.But it is less pain when I share it and while I writing this,I'm still hoping that I would be more strong again.To live.To trust and to be me again.

I don't have any idea for how long I should stay this way.They says,the strongest people in the morning is the one that cry themselves to sleep at night.I was like."Alamak,who says that!" Who came out with that quotes?

I might agree with that one BUT only if the person can put smile on their faces without others knowing their pain.

Good,now I'm talking about "pain"

I've been brainwashing myself everyday,every hour and sec.Then I spill some with Lany and my parents.Somehow,I'm strong for 5 min.For the next sec,sure I'll be thinking and missing him like crazy.The thing is,we spend our time together a lot(even it is just a month and a half).Don't you know how hard it is to change your routine,the usual stuff that you do then suddenly you have to forget about it.It's not easy.

And people so bored to hear me.It's not like they don't know what to do.They just don't know what else to do more.

Also,I'm tired when people trying to read my mind.To read my face expression.

"You're hiding your sadness by smiling"

You knew.Then why say it out loud?Don't you know it's making me more sober.You're not helping at all.No.

Lets time decide.I hope this sober would end ASAP.

"Stay Strong"

2nd July,please be nice.

Peace Be Upon You
Seriously,I'm so exhausted and tired and bored since I came back form the Larian 1 Malaysia.What makes me merungut the most is when I had to wear my tudung sekolah along my baju sukan.Errrr,the tudung is kinda thick and panas.Anyway,rules are rules.No more complains please,Safiah.

The larian ended like 9 o'clock and the P&P session run as usual.Luckily,the whole lower 6 prefer to not to continuing our P&P session and teachers also penat to teach us as well (kot).While waiting the school session finish at 12.30 noon,we're taking pictures,gossiping and blah blah blah.*Sorry I don't have the photo's with me.

& I thought after school would be cool cause we planned to hang out @ the library Alor Gajah as Zaza and Mimi wants to upload some software on their lap top and editing photo's blah blah while I'm doing all my delayed homeworks.It turn out: we took a very-very long lunch times and as soon when we reached at the library,it was CLOSE AT 2PM.We totally forget that today is SATURDAY!!!Suckss to be us!Finally,we decide lepak at the nearest KFC and Zaza sacrifice her RM11.45 just to bought 3 pepsi and 1 Milo.(How come it can be too expensive??)

4.30 pm I reached home.I can't tell ya how far I had travel from the bus stop to home with the beautiful and hot evening sunlight :(

It was 9.20PM by now I still don't know what to do.Don't tell me to finish all my homework cuz as you was inform,I'm a lazy person.Ahah,maybe I'll wacth TV3 punya drama tonight.The tittle was "anak emak" if I'm not mistaken....Bye-bye. *Atleast something to do rite????

Do u think kecantikan is everything?

Peace Be Upon You.

Sorry I haven't update my blog for a long time.Takde alasan lain,I always don't have the time nak menghadap komputer lately.I got a lot of homeworks to do.Beside,exam are coming up like 2 weeks away!!Times flew so fast kan??

Quinn Fabray.A character on Glee.I always watch glee back then when I was at KL.Kat sini,my parents tak subscribe channel ni :( Btw,my make-up was inspired by her actually.Sebab simple.Bedak tak payah tebal,long eye lashes and a red lips.Senang cerita cam natural lah konon.Beside,blusher pun antara nampak tak nampak je...Speaking of which,kenapa la aku nak keluar bermake-up ek?Perlu ke?Plus,one of my best guy friend suruh aku diet,lose some weight.I told him "ah,malas.aku tak nak jaga badan da" .Know why?Sebab I've decide,I don't want to be pretty :) Orang yang lansing,ada shape biasanya menarik perhatian orang,I don't want to be that kind of girl.Maybe ni salah satu cara nak cari someone yang suka aku sebab ikhlas,bukan sebab cantik*eh,aku takde lah nak cakap aku cantik tau!.(Someone told me that prettiest girl usually are malang because people like them with their looks.Not because herself.)

Cuba try test compare,jadi tak cubaan meniru make-up Quinn Fabray?hehe
So,usually aku tak pakai shawl camni.Pakai nan bese bese je.Yeah tetiba aku ingat pulak.Time sekolah aku masa lower form,aku comot.Ceh,lelaki tak pandang aku pun.Maklum la,comot,gemuk lak tu kan.Then bila aku dah grew up ni,ramai pula jejaka yang perasan kewujudan aku ye.Hmmmmmmmm.Abaikan.
Generally,I,sometimes think that beauty is everything.Hear my points:
1/Orang cantik selalunya konfiden.Sebab dia tau dia cantik.Apa dia buat,semua orang mesti like lah..Tak gitu?
2/Orang cantik selalu di beri peluang.Ok cuba korang perhatikan,artis2 sekarang.Lets say pelakon la,tak berapa baik lakonan nya tapi sebab dia cantik.Dia di lamar oleh produksi2 untuk melariskan drama/filem mereka.
3/Orang cantik,lelaki suka.Serius. *ha,para lelaki jangan tak nak ngaku pulak!

So apa ada dengan cantik?Mari kita fikirkan.

Love is a fun topic.

Peace Be Upon You

Lately I've been stalking on Demi.Haha.Just kidding.Don't u realize how perfect her skin was.And I love her big smile even it looks weird sometimes ;D
So since I grew up,I notice that some of my friends started to asked me, "hey safiah,do u have boyfriend?" or "hey,safiah do u crush on someone" but honestly NO.erk,except for the 2nd question.Muahahahahahaha
Yeah lot's of my friends already dating someone only a few lah yang pegang status single.And sometimes cannot stand to see how loyal they shud be to their bf's/gf's because I don't have to that.I'm freeeeeeeee.
From my observation,it's true that people said: "selalunya bf dia buruk,awek dia cun and sebaliknya" I wonder how could that happen.And now I knew why,cuz look doesn't matter.What matter in a relationship is : trust,honesty and loyalty.

Suddenly I remembered my first big crush on someone when I was 14.His name was Fisher.Since I met him,I tried to be someone who I'm not.I mean,I try to impress him by being so innocent and follow his order,obey him.I text him nite and day and it does feel comfortable when he was by my side.BTW,I don't want to waste my energy to talk about him cuz it's not worth it anymore.He technically ignore me. :) He delete my FB once and I add him because I cannot stand to not to know what his doing.haha.And now he made a new account and he only approve peeps who he thinks important to him.And it's obviously not me.Takpe.&one thing about him is,he only finds me,IM me when he needed someone to back up him with his stupid war game.(He encourage me to play online war games.WTH?) *wait,did I just try to ignoring him by not ignoring him?

See peeps,boys and girls,Love is a fun topic to talk about especially when people show some interest to your stories but what I wanna tell you is,do not caught it with that too much.(especially me)
"Jangan sayang sesuatu melebihi Allah s.w.t"

Puas hati gue. :p

Peace Be Upon You.
Setelah seminggu hari persekolahan aku berlalu,dan tak dapek la aku meng-update belog dek kerana terlalu busy tahap hiperbola bila hari-hari ada homework sastera dan hari-hari jugak lah aku kena hang out library Alor Gajah dan balik lambat dan takde masa nak exercise mahupun bersms dengan awek-awek dan pakwe-pakwe aku.TENGOK!Betapa panjang nye bebelan aku tanpa noktah.

Dek kerana nak exercise jugak,aku tabah kan tenaga walaupun aku memang dah letih sangat.Untuk mengeluarkan peluh nan banyak sebaldi,aku amek keputusan pakai losyen mustajab hot spicy satu badan.Fuh,memang hot babe!Then tengah kayuh basikal ni boleh pulak budak kecik umur 6 tahun nak main langgar-langgar aku?At first aku boleh elak lagi then second time tu entah camne,break basikal aku tak makan pulak leh langgar budak tu!Basikal aku ni tinggi,kalau jatuh atas jalan tar tu konfem sakit.Calar tangan and lutut then.Jatuh saham o,jatuh saham!!Geram aku.Nak di marah budak pulak!Sudah nya aku mencarut dalam hati je la.Hehe.Oleh kerana terkenang kan losyen mustajab yang masih hangat,aku teruskan perjuangan kayuh basikal walaupun lutu menggeletar..Ish.Ish.Ish.

Sampai sekarang luka masih berdarah.Geram betul aku dengan budak kecik tu.Dah la jiran depan rumah den.Agaknya,time budak tu dah besar nanti,baya aku,agaknya dia still ingat tak tragedi ni?Hmmmmm.mari kita fikirkan.

Ingat kot sebab memori aku time umur 5 tahun masih kuat lagi kat fikiran aku.Antaranya,aku suka main anak patung,tapi time kecik-kecik panggil "bebear".Hihi.And lagi satu,kalau aku nak panggil orang tapi tak tau nama aku panggail "babi" je.Hahah.Gentle je.

K lah,malam ni aku update lagi.babai.

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Peace Be Upon You :)

I have to admit it,lately I lost all of my mood.Except for being monotonous-person-ever.
1/From my room,to the hall,and then to the kitchen.Hell,I don't know what to do.Then I choose to play with my bike somehow,I was so bored.
2/I deleted all the previous post that I think not necessary .And browsing to Faiz Ibrahim's blog.I read all of his post about form 6.It did help me,about continuing form 6 since A LOT of peeps keep telling me how hard form 6 was.(Even I do realize it a bit,but hey,I can put a lot of effort on that kan.And tawakal je.Rezeki kita tak tau)
3/Then I saw Fey online.I had my "relationship matters" conversation with her and she did help me too.
4/then I updated this un-juicy post.Oh gimme some inspiration.Gimme a sign.

I had a lof of things goin on my mind.Fuhhhh :(

Peace be upon you :D

After u read the graphic above,I think u should answer it.TQ
Lately,I have a lot of things going right here.It's feels like a burden or something and I'm waiting for it to blow out.And It's not like I don't have someone to spill everything out,It's just,I think "this is not the time".I am not full empty-ness.I have everyone right by my side.They always there.Yeah sometimes the more u grow up or u pretend to be "grown-up" u'll facing a lot of.You know.The more people u met,the more kerenah u had to understand.Sometimes u just need a little space and a little attention.But sometimes I was like"WTH,the world is not always been about you..".But I did I mean it I want some space.And every morning,when I looked into the mirror I just dunno who's infront of me.

Okay,forget about that.

Now I'm listening to Who you are by Jessie Jay.It's my favorite song at the moment. :)
Just listening to the lyrics.I'ts kinda memahami my situation.Haha.Funny how can a song match you.

Ok Ok Ok I notice it's turning more gloomy and monotonous right here.I think it's the best if I sign out.Bye everyone.

Bukan menyusahkan cuma..

Peace Be Upon You :)

Aku tak berapa nak suka.Bukan nye benci.

Yelah,hidup memang kena ada kawan tapi..

sometimes kita kena independent jugak

Kalau dah tau bodoh tu,belajar lah

Kalau nervous tahap gaban tu makanya jangan mer-nervous kan orang lain

Kalau dah tau diri tu kibut maka ubah la kibut tu ke-cool sikit

Ahhhhh ko buat aku tak berapa nak bahagia.

Kenapa belagak cool,gangster walhal kamu penakut?

To earn people respect?

Stop it!

Jangan simbah aku dengan simpati

aku tak sanggup

kau tau aku ni lembut kan,(aceh ceh ceh ceh)

Jangan la amek kesempatan

aku cuma nak jadi baik je.

Aku nak orang seronok kawan dengan aku.hehe

Tell me what to do ohhhhhh about you?-Demi Lovato,What to do.

Tema Puisi tak berapa nak puitis ni :Penulis mahu kan sedikit ruang untuk diri sendiri dan tak mau "di depends" oleh sesiapa.

Persoalan: 1/Penulis meminta rakan nya supaya jangan asyik nak buat beliau serba salah.Persahabatan atas dasar kesian dan simpati,tak tahan lama dan tak cool lansung.(Pehal aku suka guna perkataan "cool" ni?)

2/Penulis cuba nak jadi seorang rakan yang baik,namun kalau dia gagal,dia minta maaf.

3/Penulis minta rakannya bersifat lebih natural dan cool.

I lost my mind

Peace be upon you.

Ever since yesterday,my life has been goooood.Opps scratch that.It's horrible!I was not accepted in any Uni walhal ada 8 choices.Takkan tak melekat satu pun.Oh come on lah!Please lah!Then heboh la yang suruh aku buat rayuan. (Hey,wa tau lah).Dan masalah sekarang aku tak tau dah nak apply ape kau tau.

Semalam.After cek tu (Dalam pukul 12 noon) aku start nangis.Then I think I need a bath.After bath,I cried again~~~Pergi kerja pun,nangis lagi.Mana tak nya,aku datang kerja je member dah cakap gini "Waaa tahniah.U mana?"

WTH kan?Bila aku cakap "Tak dapat" semuaaaaaaaa tak caya.Aduyai.Sejurus tu,nangis balik.Time break,aku decide nak break sensorang.Aku lepak surau.Aku ngaji.Dah lama tak sentuh Al-quran...Baru baca 3 page,dah ada orang join ngaji pulak.Oleh kerana surau tu kecik,aku tak nak la muslimah lain terganggu solatnya sebab musabab dengar 2 orang ngaji sekali gus.Maka aku pun berhenti mengaji.Aku jalan je sekitar Ampang Point namun macam takde hati.Aku dah macam mayat hidup (tapi versi ada daging.hehe).Bila dah bosan,pergi kedai buah nak beli jambu."JAMBU SOLD OUT". OIIIIIII ko tak paham ke aku tengah kecewa ni.Aku nak jambu lah woiiiii!!!! meskipun keciwa,tapi aku tau aku kena makan sikit.Makan lah kerepok lekor.Bia semangat-semangat ikan tu membakar dalam diri wa.Tapi pepaham lah,kalau makan sensorang...sedikit sebanyak keluar lagi air mata.Cis.

Balik rumah aku amek pisau.Lihat contoh kat gambar ni.

Ya kengkawan,aku memang dah gila.Aku takleh tido.Aku nangis je sepanjang malam.Apa nak jadi dengan aku ni.Camne nak jadi contoh kat adik aku?Haisshhh Junior kat ERT pulak?Mesti they all musykil "Pehal la kak Piah tak dapat U" walhal wa ni femes dengan kepandaian wa yang tak berapa nak pandai tapi boleh survive sikit2 la kat Malaysia ni.

Aku rasa cam kat Australian Outback.Aku ganjil.Aku bodoh.

Punbagaimanawalau,TQ kat kengkawan yang bagi support.Korang pepaham la bila aku frust camne.Actually aku tak tau apa nak buat time frust cuma benda pelik-pelik je aku tau.Biarkan.Aku memang pelik.That's why dulu aku takde kawan sebab aku ni pelik (Ni fakta benar dari rakan-rakan sekolah rendah).

Tak dapat.

Peace Be Upon You :0

Hari ini dalam sejarah.

1. 
   
   aku decide nak jadi DTB lagi


2. 
   
   Aku amek form 6

:)

Tak kuat iman (2)

*Photo of the day! :)

Peace be upon you

Last night me and Lany talked about my relationship matters.She make me realize something.

Since habis sekolah,I had too many space.I don't have my parents around and my gila-gila girlfriends.So I kinda started to something that I never really had before.(Ever since 20.April.2009) Which is a boyfriend.

Wacthing other people with their boyfiend,makes me feel like "Hey,I think I need one".Weird.How can I be so naive?Plus,this

"Ha-Betul-Ke-Kau-Takde-Bf"

"Ko-Kapel-La-Dengan-Si-Pulan"

"Kenapa-Takde?"

behaviour totally pushing me.This is such a pressure.
*Before I wrote something stuuuuupid so I stop right here. :)

Anyway.Aku kembali DTB.Yeay.

Plus,I think I need to start mendalami my agama again.Hope I can vanished all this feeling.Amin.
http://youtu.be/PIb6AZdTr-A

*Ish gua tak tau lah camne nak share video kat sini.Kesiannnnn

*Lagu ni best tau.Lau tak suka versi Old skul ni boleh dengar versi Miley Cyrus.

Aku dah terpesong (Agaknya lah)

Peace Be Upon You

Tetibe je tadi aku tersedar.Aku dah terpesong habis.Bukan terpesong dalam agama tuuu.MMMMm ni hal hati dan perasaan aku. *Nak share lah.

Aku tengah minat sorang mamat ni.Aduyai~You see,sejak pertemuan dan per-text- an aku dengan dia,rajin aje aku view FB dia.(hehe).Adakah perbuatan aku ni stalker?Sama sekali bukan!haha.Dulu dia yang memula start text aku sekarang ni aku je yang start.Aku rasa dia dah hilang minat kat aku!Awwwwww.

Maksud aku terpesong disini ialah..dalam rules aku,aku akan biakan mamat tu contact aku dulu.Aku tak payah contact2 dia.(Actually rule tu tak penting sangat).Yang paling penting is,that guy cared deeply about me more than I do.And I thought I found him but I guess I was wrong.Tak boleh trust my insctint again after this.

Ala...tapi aku suka kat dia ni!Isk Isk Isk.

*aku baru je nangis pasal dia tadi.. :'(

Hujan Rintik2,Air bergelora

Peace be Upon You

Hello readers!Long time no see (I guess?)

Hari ni aku habis kerja pukul 7pm tadi.Wah wah bukan main excited nak balik ni.Al-maklum lah,bukan selalu dapat shift morning tau!Dengan semangat pergi salam semua staff and g punch card.tetibe kak L bersuara "Safiah,hujan lebat lah kat luar". *eleh,tak caya!

Sesampai aku kat pintu Ampang Point,alamak.Betul lah hujan.Aduyai.Masak lah.Maka dengan tak malu nye aku masuk balik Brands Outlet(BO).Lepak la sampai 8.30pm.Akhirnya aku tekad nak balik jugak.

*hujan lagi. Ah.Aku dah tekad nak balik!nak balik jugak.

Dalam perjalanan aku kena langgar.maklum la hujan.Eh relaks la,aku kena langgar dengan percikan air!habis basah separuh badan.Balik rumah gatal je badan aku.Cis,tak guna punya driver.Takde hati perut!

Papepun.nasib bek aku selamat.Bengang betul aku dengan driver tu.As if dia memang tak sengaja,aku maafkan.Kalau dia mmg saje nak cari pasal,maka tak rahmat hidup beliau.GERAM!